Sometimes I walk around and think to myself that I'm less than other people. Now I had a very hard time trusting people growing up. I never had true friends I could talk to about my life. People always told me to trust in the lord and FCA has shown me that the things I share will not go public and that we will pray on it and find a solution.
But sometimes it's easier to trust in things that we can see and touch or it's easier to trust in my money because I know that if I can go to work I can make this amount. But it's hard to live by faith because it makes me have to understand that I'm putting all my eggs in one basket, and I have to believe that this God that I've never seen would do something for me or handle an issue for me. I have to trust without doubting this God that I continue to read about.
And I pray that I am your son God and I will not serve another God. And I am saying yes in spite of my feelings that I am inadequate and that I am insecure and I am unworthy that there is another time in me that I may not do what you're asking me to do but I am saying yes to your will and because in are weakest place that's where your strength is made perfect.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths."