I'm learning that love isn't about me. It isn't about how good I feel in the relationship; it's not about mutual or balanced exchange; it's not about trying to be someone that's easier to love. Love is about John 3:16, when God so loved the world that He gave His only Son, even when we were STILL sinners. Love is about reflecting the character of our Creator… But that can be hard to do when we're very much NOT the Creator.
I'm learning to wait on the Lord, and to trust in Him. The story of love as written in the Bible took thousands of years to be finally realized (in Christ); sometimes I get frustrated when I don't get what I want in a day. Love is a challenge, it's a fire that refines you, the iron that sharpens you, the chisel that sculpts you into the image of Christ. Love hurts; it hurts a lot. But even when it hurts, I've found that it's so hard to give up. Love is passionate and resilient, it relentlessly believes in the purpose of relationship. Love cares too deeply and invests too hopefully to ever accept defeat; it's victorious. It wants more, expects greater, envisions the best, and yet remains unconditional. Love is impossible for man to give alone, but with Jesus, all of this is possible.
I'm learning about love in a way that I never have before. I'm learning that I don't have to like the situation to love the person involved. I'm learning that I don't have to pray for that person to change, or even for me to change, for the sake of the relationship; I pray for us to change for the sake of the Kingdom. I'm learning that only hard things are worth doing, and if that's true, well… Love is the worthiest thing out there. Love is patient, love is kind, it's not boastful, it's not proud, it has no ill-will but instead rejoices when (when) the truth wins. I'm learning that love believes on the Truth, and that the Truth will win. I'm learning to love Love, and I love that.