Wisdom in The Darkness
As I have grown up, I have experienced more and more darkness. Low points in my life, which have been a blessing to me now. If you would have asked me a year ago, I would have told you that it sucked and I wish it was over. But now, it's a learning point for me that wisdom in the darkness is the best tool to get out of it.
Last year I dropped out of high school. Before that, I was in a season of depression and addiction. This was my darkness. I wanted nothing to do with anyone during this period. My wisdom for that season was too numb the pain with alternative methods. Worst mistake of my life. It led to so much more pain and darkness that could have easily been avoided. But there is one thing that sticks out to me now when I look back on it all. God has taught me how to see and use His wisdom in the darkness and low points. As Proverbs 3:1 says “My child, never forget the things I have taught you. Store my commands in your heart.” I will always store God’s commands and teachings in my heart. I am His child, so I shall keep the commands of my heavenly father.
I know that a lot of people often associate wisdom with good things, but it isn't catered only to those. Wisdom can be varied in not just the situations, but the way it is portrayed to you by the Lord. I see wisdom now as how to live for Him. How to take my thoughts captive, how to give it all to Him. It doesn't have to be just a good word. Discerning whether a thought should be let go, or given to God is wisdom. Wisdom of identifying your problem is real too. I have been given the gift of wisdom from God to see these things now. I am grateful for this gift. Not only does it help me through life, but it makes me feel seen. Seen by God.
I don't know what you are going through, or what you have gone through. I don’t know what you have used during it, or how to get out of it. But I know that for now, until the end of time, I will forever and always use the wisdom of the Lord to get through my darkness.